The m0vIe of My Life

Hi!! i havn't posted anything here in a while. been busy with my internship and life.. but most of the time its work. it's an 8 to 5 sched and no time to rest afterwards. i'm not even really starting to work, but i already bring work home. and when my mom found out that i was bringing work home, she got really pissed. she told me that i shouldn't be doing that coz the company is not even paying me to do work. they wont even appreciate it even if i finish early or not.

in other news, because of this internship, me and my wifey has been seeing each other every other day and she's really dissapointed with that kind of setting. because we use to see each other every day and a sudden change of schedule pissed her off at an instant. we started having fights because of it. i hope she understands that i'm not really going to school any more and i'm really doing this for the both of us. i really want to make good of my internship so hopefully i can be absorbed by that company and make a living for the both of us (am i dreaming? why am i saying thse suff?) i sound like that i'm gonna marry her huh? well, we have talked about it... and if it goes well between us, maybe, just maybe... we will have a life together in the near future...we even started to talk about babies (that scared the shit out of me!) i don't think hat i'm ready to have that kind of stuff yet. oh well that's just wishful thinking right? oh yeah! i almost forgot that i want to post some pictures here. well i just want to share whatever pictures i have for the past how many months? 6 or 7 months?
so follow the cut or sumthing (by the way, it's the first time i'm going to use lj cut. so forgive me for any mistakes)

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any way, i have to go now so i can take a bath and go see my baby!! weeee! i love saturdays!!

i'm sick today. i can't go out because i don't feel well. i have my fever and runny nose and this has been going on forever and i'm almost out of tissue paper :(. i don't know when will it stop or if i will ever get better soon because i seem to have relapses. its like my fever is sometimes there and then it will be gone. the doctor said i should rest but i can only afford to be absent from school for just one day or i'll be falling behind. i really need to go school if i want to pass my subjects this term and i'm not willing to repeat them after my internship. thats a lot of money down the drain so i don't want that. i can't even see my gurlfriend today. and she scolded me for not taking care of myself. she told me that i should know the limit of my own body and know when it's time to rest. now i'm suffering from a lot of head ache. i hate having fever and flu and being absent... i wish i can get better. like right now... oh well i'll just look at the brighter side of things. i can watch every anime and l word episode that i want hehehehehehee!!

was watching this on youtube.com it was funny when scarlett johansson only stared at natalie portman when she was talking. it was like she was getting ready to kiss her any time hehehe :D



another video and song that i like."no air" by Jordin Sparks and Chris Brown







leona lewis

week end i didn't have any sleep at all because i was doing my presentation for market research so i didn't have any sleep for over 40 hours. it was worth it because i didn't get out of the room as "chopped liver" so it only means that i have endured and survived the torture of the panelist and got a high mark for that presentation(yay for me!!) tomorrow night i will be going out with my girl to go drinking with some friends i hope that i won't be drunk too early so i can go home with out the wobbly feet... thats all for now nyt nyt :D "INUMAN NA PARE!!"

good news!! good news!!! i was told today at school that i would be an intern next term!! weeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this only means that i would be graduating soon from college!! yay!! when i heard about it from the very mouth of my school's placement officer it was like new year all over again and it went off with a big bang!! i can't wait!

3:30 in the morning.. it's already sunday and i can't sleep.. i've tried every position that i think i'm going to be comfortable with sleeping. but nothing happens!!!! i've been twisting and turning... i'm going to be awake until 5.. i wanna sleep!! i need the sandman or something.

after a week at school and 4 hours of commuting everyday... i happily welcome the weekend so i can rest and rest and rest. yay!!!

so here's the thing. i went to my girlfriend's place so i can spend time with her because she doesn't have class today. in exchange i gave up one school day and one important class just to be with her because she has been nagging me that i don't have enough time for her. and to think we see each other everyday. so i spend the whole day with her and i was expecting her to spend time with me too, coz hey, she's the one who requested it. but boy was i damn fucking wrong! she was only studying the whole day. damn it! i was sitting on the bed watching tv looking like an idiot the whole freaking day and the whole time she was in front of her computer researching and stuff. i even sat beside her and tried to have a conversation with her but the response was like this(0_0)......??.so i told her never mind and i'm gonna sleep for a few minutes. i can understand that she has a lot to do but she could have given me the time of the day to have her all to myself. because i made some effort here. i live far away from her place and all i got was a blank response and an empty day.. dam it! it's really frustrating!

just got my early christmas present from my mom and dad! a new phone and a new laptop! woooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its been a while since i have written anything in here. i have been really been busy with school,family,business, and love. i practically don't have time for myself anymore. my class starts at around 8:00 a.m. so i have to wake up at around 5:45 a.m. to reach school on time. i have to commute for two hours riding two trains and a jeepney. its really tiring coz everyday is a race and i have to be mentally and physically alert even though i soooo want to sleep in my comfy bed and mountain of pillows. after a day at school i go straight to her house and spend a few hours there. but even in her house i can't rest because she will be nagging me about it. after that i i go to my office and spend some time there then i go hme at around 1:00 a.m.... its really hard to juggle everything.especially when your tryying to juggle thing that require your full attention and time.

i wish i could spend time with myself. no worries. no anything. no school work.no deadlines to meet. no demands. I WANT PARADISE!!!

ok i'm realy pissed at myself right now coz i can't upload the videos that i'm suppose to upload at veoh.com. i'm having a problem with the copyright thing. and i've tried almost every method that i know. someone help me please....desperate

i have been working on my fic for it's 2nd chapter for almost a week now.. but lately i have been in a very grumpy mood coz school started and i have been fighting with my girl. so the ideas in my head are all jumbled up and in need of some organization.. hmm i never thought that it would be hard to write the 2nd chapter  hehehee. moods ca really affect one's writing style and the flow of the story ofcourse. and most of the time since last week, i have been distracted (got robbed by the atm machine and and lost about 20000,that's about 500 US dollars) so in other words, iv'e been side trackeddue to these events... i hope i can finish the 2nd chapter this weekend...

i just finished reading Deep Love (scanlated by kotonoha) and i cried like a baby!! T_T it's a very sad story.. teen prostitution.. the main character didn't even care for herself in the beginning.. then then then... in short i really cried. some of the issues that were tackled there, affected me personally(maybe because it took a direct hit at me). but i don't really know how hahahaa!! ironic! but i really enjoyed the book and it tackles the issues that the modern society face. we can actually see it everywhere but most people try to ignore it. hands down to the author who made the book!

i have been watching the first 23 episodes of CLAYMORE and it freakin' rocks!! woooooooo!!!!! i have never been this excited over an animè since Evangelion!! god dang it!! why did i fucking wait to long?! woooooooo!!!!!! yey!!!!!!!!!!!!! CLAYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHO'S YOUR SIMPSONS CHARACTER??

found her video and daaaaaaaaaammmmmmnnnnn she's good.

its almost 2:00 in the morning and i'm still awake typing away in my journal and i'm suppose to do my final paper for one of my major subjects (i have to revise the paper that my group mates have done) but i can't concentrate on it and i swear the paper is really fucked up and we have a defense on monday. since my brain is not producing any idea for my final paper, i was doing origami the whole day and made several classic paper lilies which i havn't done since i was a kid and it turned out to be nice. i was sooo amused that i started giving paper lilies to my mom and sister because i made too many :)
and i talked to my ex-boyfriend earlier when i was taking a walk outside. we talked for a while. tried to catch up on things because we haven't talked to each other since i broke up with him 2 or 3 something years ago. our conversation lead to, him asking me if i have someone significant in my life. i told him that i have someone very dear to me but i didn't tell him that i have a girlfriend (he thinks that i'm straight)because i don't want to hurt his pride (before i met my girlfriend, he was my boyfriend)by telling him that. i have learned that he has a steady girlfriend and they have been going out for almost 2 years already (haha!! i moved on faster than him hahahaaa!!!!!!!!!!) and apparently he said that i have already seen the girl. i was like "really? i don't think i have seen her before" and i don't think that i have seen his girlfriend. oh well i am happy for him. it's a good thing that he found someone after i broke up with him. because to tell you the truth... i know i'm going to sound mean or you guys might think that its just my ego or pride talking, but i didn't really love him love him. i only loved him as a friend. when he was courting me for 5 months or more (can't really remember how many but i know its above 5)i felt pressure from my family and him. my parents loved him as their own child. so imagine me being pressured to take him as my boyfriend and he was everywhere. and my parents constantly asked me on when will i have him as my boyfriend. so imagine the pressure that i was receiving from the both of them? one day i grew tired of the situation and i accepted him though i know that i don't really feel anything for him i just thought 'why not try it?'. the relationship only lasted a month because he changed after i became his girlfriend. its like discovering a new person. he became so clingy,became super obsessed with everything,and we were fighting constantly. so we both decided to end it. i cried only once after we broke up. just once and you can even count the tears that flowed out of my eyes. i cried because i wasn't really losing a lover, but i was loosing a friend. between me and him,after our break up, he was the one who cried constantly and got himself drunk every night. but after the break up, i don't feel any regret. not even a single speck of it. maybe because i didn't really love him in a way that he wanted me to. and i didn't actually meet him halfway. and its hard for me to say that i love him. every time that he tells me that he loves me i just looked down and say "me too" see how lame i responded?... in other words the relationship wasn't meant to be. anyway, i'm happy that he's happy and leading his own life just like i am. :)

hey guys i just saw this video and its sexy. i don't know if you will like it but it's hot

morning!!! so i had a really rocky morning start.. because my coffee maker broke! T_T now i have to buy a new coffee maker (if i want to survive). i know, i know, i can drink instant coffee.. but noooooooooooo..... because instant taste different from brewed coffee. so since i can't have my morning coffee(cranky mood) i searched my fridge for something to eat so i can wake up. i almost gave up but at the bottom part of my fridge i saw milk and Oreo!! wooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i swear it can really give you energy in the morning (good substitute for coffee if you want to be a hyper kid in the morning). but next time i should eat something healthy instead of eating junk foods.